Fall 2014 fashion: Scout’s ham costume from To Kill A Mockingbird
sotong: a somewhat singlish term to refer to some one who is slow in thinking, gullible, naive
or you could just say absentminded :)
I always space out, it's not your fault.
welcomeee to my inner me
It’s the fear that you aren’t good enough. It’s the fear that you’ve lost everything that was you in order to make someone else happy. It’s the fear again that people will like you. It’s the fear that people don’t like the real you. Of all these, I had the least confidence in my ability to make someone stay, and despite what taylor swift sings about how she’s gonna shake off the fact that people say she can’t keep a man, at least she had one. I can’t break out of the wall I’ve caged myself in, wanting to stay detached so that I can tell myself it’s okay, people don’t notice because you don’t want to be noticed, it’s okay, nobody likes you and it’s okay because you aren’t there ready yet.
But there is always a what if outside the frame of fear. What if you tried everything and it’s still not enough. I’m so deadly afraid of people that I go to interviews, reply people’s messages knowing there is this ugly soul inside of me, and amazed that some people still like me, even when I’m closer to them, I still feel like running away and hyperventilating at the same time.
There are definitely gonna be people who judge me, I’m just not ready to know how and what they judge me on.
He said to me, ‘You’re perfect,
and I want you to be mine.’
But I felt I wasn’t worthy,
and to be perfect, I need time.
I knew it would be worth it,
and I could be better if I tried.
Then he got tired of waiting,
and I watched my chance go by.